I am in the middle all of the time -- and I can't say that I always like it.
It's been a while since I shared with you how my medications are affecting me, so let me go ahead and do that now. The short answer is: I feel pretty good. My thoughts are definitely clearer since I started taking the mood stabilizer in addition to the antidepressant I had been taking. My moods are more consistent. I'm not a zombie. (I'm always worrying that my mind will become useless, but, no, that hasn't happened.)
Don't get me wrong. I am definitely not feeling the emotional extremes that I'm used to. I am more in the middle all of the time -- and I can't say that I always like it. I'm still adjusting.
There are some unpleasant side issues such as weight gain, and I still rely heavily on my coping strategies. But overall, my head is squarely on my shoulders thanks in great deal to Seroquel.
I'm still adjusting, but overall, my head is squarely on my shoulders thanks in great deal to psychiatric medications.