My pseudonym is my name

In the post I published Sunday I mentioned a Q&A site called Quora that I've recently enjoyed playing around with. Today, the account stands deactivated.

Today, my account at Quora.com stands deactivated.

What happened?

Well, I changed my name. Earlier this week -- or maybe it was yesterday -- I changed my Quora email and username to the names I use for this blog and for Twitter (and for a lot of what I write). Alice. My name is Alice.

As a writer I choose to use a pseudonym. I don't know for sure why this is; I'll think more about it one day -- some day other than today. I can certainly see the value in requiring people to use their real, birth certificate, parent-bestowed names, but I don't have to like it. I don't even have to abide by it. I don't, and I guess, I won't.

I have to have the separation. In this space, I've decided Alice is my name.

As a writer I choose to use a pseudonym. I don't know for sure why this is; I'll think more about it one day -- some day other than today.

The decision is more difficult than that. I've asked, answered, and commented on more questions than I know. My content has been seen by at least a couple thousand readers. I've been able to be a real voice in a dangerously homogenous land.

But, if I'm honest I can easily concede that I have been distracted by the site also. Reading, answering, and suggesting edits has taken up a lot of my time that could be allotted to other, more-permanent, things. I can't write everything that comes to mind. I can't ask every question I think of when I think of it. I can't do everything. I ought not do everything. I will not do everything.

Perhaps, the Lord is refocusing me here. As I wrote yesterday, these personal essays I write daily are hard to do at times when my thoughts are a bowl of spaghetti. My thoughts are often a bowl of spaghetti. Writing relatively short snippets in response to questions I find of interest on Quora, is an easy way out.

I have to have the separation. In this space, I've decided Alice is my name.

In blogging, it's hard to not worry about your level of traffic, how many people you're reaching. Quora provides immediate feedback; your views and comments and upvotes add up so quickly. I constantly check for Quora-related emails and am always clicking the notifications tab. Is this why I write questions and answers at all? I don't know, but I wouldn't be surprised if it was.

I have some suspicions that changing my writing habits has had an effect on my mind. It has been hard to focus -- and other things I can't put my finger on. Perhaps, the jumping around from one topic to another, using multiple screens, having multiple agendas for each window has somehow prolonged some hypomanic symptoms in me this week. I don't know. I can tell you though that looking at a screen late into the night, all hyped-up on the beauty of grammar, gets me thinking I don't need sleep at all.

Perhaps, the jumping around from one topic to another, using multiple screens, having multiple agendas for each window has somehow prolonged some hypomanic symptoms in me this week.